Yeah, I'd like to start off with a very big
apology for being very inactive and not responding to comments,etc.
But lately things have been on the ceiling. Yes.
There's been so many things going crazy all at once in my life like school, family problems,myself emotionally, lots of stuff.
In general it's been way too many things for me too handle both psychically and mentally...
As well also, I'll be moving this Friday to a new house so for say next week or so I'll have Internet possibly? I know it'll be soon though but that's besides the point.
I just need some space to take a breather.
Some fresh air, and just relax.
Half of myself is very upset that I haven't gone on anything
because I feel repelled to and the other half of me wants to speak to my friends on here and not be inactive but I just don't want to be in an upset mood and be a nuisance to you all when you're all in a good mood,etc. I just don't want to drag you down with me. I would feel horrible if I did.
And it upsets me because I've seen friends, well now some posts, that need help or stuff is tough for them, but right now I don't have all the emotional strength to go and do what I do because I'm just not well...
Not right now....
I'm so out of it and I apologize to every single one of you. I feel guilty for not responding back or posting or just not doing anything in general. I feel horrible. And I am so sorry again.
I just need space and a lot of time.
But I know soon enough I'll be good as new, but right now I'm very overwhelmed with many, many things. Some days I'm dancing naked (not literally of course lol.) but.. Seconds later I feel like breaking down or causing myself self harm or just feel like hiding under a rock..
This isn't me.
I'm rarely like this. . .
But it's been too much. Way too much...
So I just need time alright my lovelies..?
Don't worry, I won't necessarily be gone for long, just for a little bit..
Just so I can recover and not just be complaining or whining or posting vent stuff, etc.
So.. Till then,
I'll see you all my loves.
With lots of love, Val/Joey.
*slowly rolls away into a hole*